On Maturing – Jennifer Patino (Thistle Thoughts)





On Maturing

the wardrobe insists
that it’s 1996 &
the audience accepts this

I am cusping,
anger combusting
& my wrath
drains crimson

down the bath,
the walls are
coated,

in dream scrawl

my head rings


imploded

this is the next season of life
& it’s just as lonely
as the last one,
but this time
there are less
people around

& sounds
slip inside
one of my
many

neural openings,
disrupting my

able pathway

& what is this


growing up


anyway?

moonlight curses
me with memories
I question

because creativity

both hexed & blessed me

the old ladies

once told me

womanhood was a gift
& so I lived

in fear of it
destroying me

faulted for being female,
both exalted, damaged & frail

but laughing
ever awkwardly

at endless sexist vulgarity

to stay safe

& biting

brittle nails

to avoid needing

to run or escape

No more!

everything changes
at its own pace

I can no longer deny who I was made,
or the harshness of this day & age

I can tear

or turn

the page

****

online at: https://thistlethoughts.com/

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I am a Social Worker by day and an artist/writer by night. I use the written word in an attempt to make sense of the secret worlds and dysfunctional dynamics that lurk beneath the facades of our daily interactions. I am not sure how my writing styles are characterized, nor am I overly concerned about it. I am immensely enthusiastic about music and often connect better with songs than I do people. I also have an intense appreciation for quality wines and whiskies, frequently consuming them in excess. I like things that smell good and struggle to manage the symptoms of a life-long relationship with depression. So, why "grumpygorman"? Spend some time here and find out...

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